Should I or should I not

Upper Bhavani River background

Oh God thanks for what you have given, Observe Gautam buddha sleeping with folded hands

A wild flowe in Botanical Garden (Trying out exposure levels)

Again in Botanical Gardens (Again trying Exposure levels)

I know its over exposed but I like just for the timing. The guy kept flowing as the entire CTC started clicking

Went to ooty photography trek this weekend and had a very good time. I have not been feeling at the best of my spirits lately and am kind of moody for the past 1 days (which explains my absence from the blog world. So took couple of days off but spent mostly doing nothing. I am sure Sam was not comfortable and I am really feeling bad that I let Sam get affected by all of it and could not do much myself. I am taking all the help I need to make sure that our lives are pleasant but somehow I feel I could have done lot more things better for Sam.
On top of all these happenings, I have registered for a trek and I went for the trek to ooty a beautiful place if you consider visiting places other than botanical garden other regular ones. I was physically there but was always thinking Sam and when I called R told me that Sam was not sleeping till 2 am I started thinking. He was smart enuf that he didn’t tell this till the end of the trip, lest I might come back running. I came back and saw Sam Sleeping at the far end of the cot with her bear. I woke her up and told her that I got chocolate for her (Giving her one of the huge chocolates she gets whenever someone visits us). She hugged me tight and I told her I love you samy and she tole me I love you Mommy. She closed her eyes and again told the same “I love you Mommy” from under the bedsheet. I asked is she was scared missed me and she said yes mommy. It melted my heart so much that I have decided not to go for two day treks.
Whenever someone tells me that I should not leave Sam alone and go for treks for my own pleasure I argue with them that I don’t want look back 15 years later to find out that I could never do what I wanted to do because I could not afford it when I was young and I had kids when I grew up. But somehow this trip is making me feel bad dunno why. Look at some of the pics (Straight from Camera, NO Post processing and help me decide, if its worth pursuing the hobby (photography trekking once in 3 months) so that I improve a bit by learning from the people I am comfortable with.